2 Weeks to Go!

*Something strange is going on with Blogger today. Sorry about the font issues. I don't have the energy to go through the html to figure it out.

I have slipped into the fake lament that most bloggers slip into prior to major life events. Specifically birthing. Perhaps it is the exploitation and narcissism that blogging promotes (I love it!) that seems to cut against the grain of a very private, yet very human universal experience, that shuts us down from wanting to communicate. What ever the reason my introspection has been limited to patterns such as this:

Oh look, my belly is moving- aw, it is because we have a little girl in there- one day she will hit puberty- barf

In a few weeks we will have a baby- barf

Look at these cute little pants hanging on the line- I can’t believe I have a child inside of me that will one day be out and fit into them- barf

What if I totally fuck this kid up- what if I totally rock- my face has a zillion pimples on it- I am only glowing because of the sheen of oil on my nose- I feel like I have another earlobe worth of flesh hanging out my butt with this new hemorrhoid- we are getting a new drier- our daughter weighs 6.5 pounds already- barf

So the other day I decided to take the muslin cloths (a thin piece of cloth that is used for baby barf, snuggling, bibs, num nums, and other misc. things I have no idea about because I am not yet a mum) and learn how to embroider simple designs on them. It is the most crafty thing I have done in months. It is funny how crafting seemed to have slipped to the bottom of the pile. Crafting and being creative in general. It is really one of the best ways for me to let off some stress.

Okay, so I am sitting here now, with the most disjointed post known to my blog. My feet are swollen beyond recognition to the point where they are painful to move, the skin under my right breast is numb, the house is a mess and the in laws are on their way (they just called) to see our space for the first time since we got together. I should go.

I should clean.

Perhaps I will just craft.