Monday, September 14, 2009

Sigh

Well I was hoping by now that I would have some news or a baby. Actually I was hoping for a baby. Funny thing is, she has decided not to arrive. It is 3am this fine Monday morning and I am unable to sleep. Some of the stresses that are presenting themselves are getting to me and I am having a hard time sorting out my feelings and convictions. Without getting into too much of a political post, lets just say from the start that there is good reason to not be induced. There are good reasons to be induced or to have an elective c-section, but if all is going well with your child and your own health, then there is minimal risk of complications and it is safe to allow your baby to chose when to arrive.

That being said, having the timing be so off has managed to cost our family 2 months of rent from D's canceled work. It has managed to leave D no time to be at home alone with the baby before my parents arrive next week. These things weigh on us and are hard to let go of. The longer it takes the more these stresses override the excitement and that is what has me up at 3am. I am getting worn out in the shuffle of it all. So that is where we are. 41 weeks and 6 days.

My own birthday is on Wednesday, I wonder if she is waiting to share it with me.

2 comments:

Sarajoy said...

I'm thinking of you. My Blue was two weeks late and it was difficult. Especially difficult was everyone asking me when I was going to induce. And then everyone giving me advice as to how to get the baby to come out, as if her "delay" was my own personal shortcoming.

Blessings to you in this difficult spot.

Smartypants said...

My best friend and I fundamentally disagree on inductions. She views them as normal. Her friends schedule them so they know exactly when their child is arriving and can plan accordingly. She plans on having an induction so she can have everything perfectly scheduled.

I disagree and my doctor agreed with me. We see them as an option if they're medically needed but not something to be done lightly.

If she hasn't come out yet, she probably just needs to cook a bit longer, right? = )

We can be wrong about due dates. In several instances, I know we can be wrong about how big the baby is as well. Lo and behold, the baby arrives significantly smaller than what the doctor predicted.

Sarajoy is right. People will probably offer you all kinds of advice about hurrying the blessed event along. Try to remember they see you tired and so very ready to deliver. They're just trying to ease your discomfort.

For my own reasons, I understand about what the delay means to you personally. ::hug::

I have this feeling it won't be today. I have a feeling it'll be Wednesday.

= )